Thoughts on life, writing, art, and health.
I have tried to find balance with my social media use, but I admit defeat, even with the improvements to using social media less from the tactics I introduced at the start of the year. I am quitting (most) social media with the intent to step away for good down the line.
While I didn't have many events going on, my mental illness flared up. I was on the edge and needed to stop, sit down with myself, and make sure I knew how to be okay from now on. Some content in this post openly discusses mental illness experiences, and so trigger warnings are included in that section.
We've got a sort wrap-up for March 2021. The rain dominated and I felt just as scattered as the precipitation.
At some point this final week, I forgot February had only 28 days. Was I here for this month? In a way, yes. Was I present? ...Nope. But let's get back to reality and look at books, music, games, mental health, accomplishments, highlights, and plans from February 2021!
After overworking myself in 2020, feeling like a failure when I crashed from my burnout at the end of the year, I earned a promotion and have found a renewed sense of hesitant motivation, despite still feeling like a failure.
Let's look at January: books I read, music I enjoyed, games I played, mental health struggles, and my accomplishments.
I want to break my social media addiction. Passive consumption consumes my life. A social media addiction is a bad habit I know I can break.
Look, I'm sad and expressing it in poetry helps. Bipolar disorder is hard. I am not in crisis, I'm just real fuckin' sad.
I have not worked long in fast food, but I need to speak up about some of the customers I continue to serve during the COVID19 pandemic.